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Depression is a strange little world some people visit, and some people live in. A dark little world full of melodrama and little logic. I definitely live there, spending some time on the coast, where it’s a little more sunny, occasionally travelling ( Read more... )

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You know what I hate. Doctors. I hate them. Okay not all of them. Some of them. Lots of them.

But the doctors that I hate the most are the ones that ask me questions, listen to my answers, then completely ignore everything I say. Yes, please, ignore my ( Read more... )

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I know, it’s been a lot of pictures and few words. Not that I haven’t had a lot to say, just not the motivation to say it. Or write it as the case may be. This week has been hell, compared to the brilliance that was last week. Last week I was in an ( Read more... )

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Ten years ago, I did not see my life being like it is today.

I’m not for or against my life like it is now. I’m just saying that I didn’t see this coming for a few reasons I guess, though maybe I should’ve. Technology has enabled me actually. I ( Read more... )

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I’m starting to resign myself to the fact that I’m always going to have trouble sleeping. Nothing works. okay, not nothing. One thing works. Sleeping tablets. But even my usual dose of Zopiclone isn’t working any more, and I only resort to sleeping ( Read more... )

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I’m really struggling to get up in the morning right now. It’s never been easy for me, but it feels even harder these past couple of weeks, and all I want to do is sleep. Sleep, sleep, sleep. Not that my dreams are particularly good or anything (quite ( Read more... )

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I haven’t self-harmed for an entire year.

This means cutting (what I usually did), burning (rarely), hitting and bruising myself (tried it a few times but didn’t like it). Over-medicating. I’ve tried most things in a bit cause myself some damage.

But ( Read more... )

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I feel a bit stuck.

Not in the same way I felt stuck years ago, when I lived in Leicester and I was stuck, trapped, continuously fighting the gravity of a black hole, but a different, less intense kind of stuck.

The kind of stuck that stops me from ( Read more... )

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At some point I just have to accept certain…problems. Problems that are in fact hard to define. Are they problems? Are they hiccups? Moments in times that seem outside all the others? Or are they they defining moments, and everything else is an ( Read more... )